There we go

Quick update from my Holding Blog.

3) So I've now read the first book in the "Conversations with God" series.

Opinion?

If reading "Life and How to Survive it" at the age of 19 was like being given permission to be myself, like receiving validation that the way my mind worked was not only OK but actually pretty groovy, then reading CwG at the age of 33 was like coming home.

I recognise the world its describing. I know that world. It’s not a stretch. It’s what feels right.

I’m currently reading “Anatomy of the Spirit” by Caroline Myss (which was given to me by my Honey). Feels like I’ve found a teacher…

2) Communication skills… I’m still not terribly objective. Get a little too far into my own groove to really be able to properly share this stuff. I’m sure it’ll mature with time.

1) Grace? Have I developed grace, you say? I’ve certainly managed to find a bit more than I had. We'll call it a work in progress.

Well, moving on, the reason I’m writing just now is to share something I found using one of my favourite games.

To play this game think of something you want an answer to, choose a book which you love, and which loves you, and open it randomly. Point to a random place on said page, and read.

Or get someone you love to say “when” in order to pick the page and the place on said page.

I played this with my Honey last night over the phone.

The book was “Advanced Banter, the QI Book of Quotations” by Johns Lloyd and Mitchinson. Page 100.

Subject: Encouragement.

The finest gift you can give anyone is encouragement. Yet, almost no one gets the encouragement they need to grow to their full potential. If everyone received the encouragement they need to grow, the genius in most everyone would blossom and the world would produce abundance beyond our wildest dreams.

Sidney Madwed

I would lose the word "most", but other than that, that’s what I was trying the say in “The Big number 2”. 

It’s what I believe to be true.

I also believe it's both completely possible and absolutely wonderful.

And believing that it’s not only true, but also both possible and wonderful, I really can’t help but dedicate myself to making it so.

And I’ll do it by being totally myself. In all my grandness and foolishness. Because by being both as grand and foolish as your soul can reach, you give other people permission to do the same. 

You got something better to be than yourself?

Love you Guys.

x
TP

Reality Mechanics aka Reimaginating the Laws of Thermodynamics, just like the IChing told me

Hello Guys!

If you don't love a bit of science, then just skip to the colourful bit at the end.  (Thank you Peggy.  I love your beautiful small round head).


http://www.fact-index.com/t/th/thermodynamics.html:
Thermodynamics is the study of energy, its conversions between various forms, the ability of energy to do work, and the spontaneity of processes. It is closely related to statistical mechanics from which many thermodynamic relationships can be derived. It is not concerned with the concept of time, or that of rate of change (derivative in time). As a result, it has been suggested that this science should rather have been called thermostatics.

The Laws of Thermodynamics
Alternative statements are given for each law. These statements are, for the most part, mathematically equivalent.

• Zeroth law: Considered to be more fundamental than the other three laws, it was not termed a law until after the others were already in use, hence the number 'zero'. There is some discussion about its status. Stated as:
• If each of two systems is in thermal equilibrium with a third system, all must be in equilibrium with each other.
• 1st Law: Is stated as follows:
• Energy can neither be created nor destroyed only changed.
• The heat flowing into a system equals the sum of change in internal energy plus the work done by the system.
• The work exchanged in an adiabatic process depends only on the initial and the final state and not on the details of the process.
• The sum of heat flowing into a system and work done by the system is zero.
• 2nd Law: A far reaching and powerful law, it can be stated many ways, the most popular of which is:
• It is impossible to obtain a process such that the unique effect is the subtraction of a positive heat from a reservoir and the production of a positive work.
• A system operating in contact with a thermal reservoir cannot produce positive work in its surroundings (Kelvin)
• A system operating in a cycle cannot produce a positive heat flow from a colder body to a hotter body (Clausius)
• The entropy of a closed system never decreases (see Maxwell's demon)
• 3rd Law: This law explains why it is so hard to cool something to absolute zero:
• All processes cease as temperature approaches zero.
• As temperature approaches to 0, the entropy of a system approaches a constant.

Right then.  That's the "currently understood science" stated.  Now on with the fireworks...


http://en.wikiquote.org/wiki/Thermodynamics:

"A common scientific joke, as stated by C. P. Snow, expresses the four laws simply and surprisingly accurately as:

0th) You must play the game.

1st) You can't win.

2nd) You can't break even.

3rd) You can't quit the game."

Hmm, very clever, but not clever enough.  It's a joke.  A fix.  A lie. (Garvey, well done that man).

Try this:

Life is actually an awesome casino.  All the Elvises you can eat, and the win is guarenteed, guilt-free and glorious!

0th) Dedicate yourself to the game and we all win, and keep winning.

1st) Winning your bit of the game is as easy as doing what you love and listening for feedback.

2nd) Doing what you love to do at any given time will get you the best feedback.  You just have to listen.

3rd) Best news?  You get to play this game forever... And the long term win is guarenteed.  No worries.  Ever. Happy days :)

Come again?

Lets have another look shall we.

0th) Luke warm tea.
If you leave a cup of tea in a room it will equalise it's temperature with the room. This is a well known piece of hedge science, and the bane of busy tea drinkers everywhere. But who said the room was cold? If the room is blazing with the light of a million of our suns then the tea will get very excited indeed. It too will blaze.

We are creatures of energy, as is everything around us (tap your desk, that's congealed energy mate).

It takes one person to turn onto an idea that makes them blaze and they will take any who care to stand close to them long enough with them. With no irony at all (American trans. "I am completely serious"), I can tell you I am currently blazing. (All the malarkey on this blog is what happens when I blaze - and no, I don't mean that I'm stoned - what will you do?)

The laws of return state that where you give freely you will receive back 3-fold, but when you cheat you steal from yourself. If you have a look at this again, you'll see this is just a restating of the zeroth law. Put any two things together and the temperature will equalise. The more you put in, the higher the temperature at which equalisation occurs.  The more people who do this the greater the exponential effect, and hence the good return on your initial energy outlay. It's science mate. Go forth and blaze and, slowly, you'll find that the world can't help but blaze with you.


1st) Energy can neither be created nor destroyed only changed.
As creatures of energy, imagination and story we have the power on a moment to moment basis to transform energy. And best of all, the easiest way to do this is to have a laugh. How amazing does everyone feel after they've had a good laugh? The air sparkles don't it.

So don't sit in your brain when trying to figure something out, it's the equivalent of constantly clicking your mouse when you PC is trying to think (I mean process…). Go do something fun, your mental secretaries will thank you for the air and you'll get your answer that much quicker. You can answer any question this way. For example: What is your deepest love..? (And if you find the answer to that question, blazing is assured).

And the best bit is, you don't need anything more than you already have. Energy can neither be created nor destroyed. All you need do is look at exactly what you got, inside and out, and laugh. Let's face it, you are funny. Just look at you! Hilarious :)

There are a couple of rules you may wish to note as you evolve from a meat creature into a supernova, just cos it'll make things easier. Who wants a hard life? Have a look: http://tlandu.blogspot.com/2010/09/open-source-code.html


2nd) Entropy.
In other words, everything is a bit leaky. All things, whatever they are, radiate (lose) energy. Of course they do! Everything is constantly trying to communicate with everything else. And we blessed creatures have the ability to interpret the messages encoded in this leaky energy. Each message like a little song telling you what the thing is all about and where it currently is on it's journey through time.

Go somewhere you find beautiful and just listen. Watch the images that flash before you. We are all living in a multidimensional puzzle game. Like Zelda. Play your flute, don your mask. Really fucking listen, and then go do exactly what the excited whispers of inspiration tell you to do.

But don't ever stop listening.

Everything is singing, and if you can hear it, it's singing for you. By the same truck, if you don't love something, can't listen to it with an open heart, then leave it alone, it's not for you. Including this blog. Seriously, don't worry about it. If it's important it'll catch up with you soon enough.


3rd) All processes cease as temperature approaches zero.
But absolute zero is not possible to achieve in this universe, and therefore processes will never cease. Why is that? Well. Go read Conversations with God by Neale Donald Walsch (quite a Guy). I'm currently on page 28.

Hey, Book club! Jump in, give it a read, and let me know what you think you fascinating creature.


Summary
Am thoroughly looking forward to seeing this world blaze bright with the awesome light of more than 6 billion supernovas. But don't fret it. All in your own good time Guy, at your own sweet pace, with a temperature you find agreeable and the beverage of your choice. Yeah it's the start of something new, big, and fantastic. But it's also very chilled, ridiculously easy, and more than anything else, profoundly fucking funny.

X
TP

PS
Phil tells me I need to hold fire until I've finished the book before I really try and get any kind of message out there. Luckily no one is really reading this blog at the mo, so I can post with impunity. Once I've done the book (and the other 2 bits) I think it'll be time for an email.


It's now 22:10 10.10.2010.  Make a wish...

x
TP

Holding Blog

Hello,

I awoke this morning pumped full of the fecund juices of creation. But more on that later. Before I write again I have some missions to go on. Promises to keep:

1) Acquire (some?) Grace.

2) Learn to communicate more effectively. It's all very well blissing out on beautiful music and then spilling my deep felt truths from that divine trance, but it's not what I'm about. If I'm going to waggle my arse in public the idea is to provide a succinct message about where the honey is, not to hypnotise everyone with my arse.

3) Read more of Conversations with God. BTW, I'm calling the almighty "God" again. It's just such a powerful word no other will do. But when I refer to y'all as Guys you know exactly what I mean yeah? I'm naming you as Gods. As baby Universes in your own right. As creatures of imagination and story and meat. Children of God. Wrought from the very stuff of God. All that Jazz.

In the meantime, anyone got a message to share then email, comment, pick up some litter, whatever. I am loving the messages, bring them on.  Help me out, I've got missions.

Love you Guys.

x
TP

P.S. Finally listened to the 1st song off of The Seldom Seen Kid. Ha ha ha.  Talk about future echoes, or parallel evolution or whatever has happened there.  All I can say is, Yes! Of course!!!!  But then I do have a lot to learn about grace still...

Open source code

For Dan.

From notes written on the stoop.  10:06 12/09/2010

Listened to a bit of Elbow.  Then moved to Last FM for some Placebo radio (Cheers Pirate boy).

So, if everything is made of energy, and Guy gave the world to us, and if we can transform energy using our actions, words, thoughts and emotions (which we can) then the challenge has been set.

Come all you geeks and programmers, how will we define our new reality?

Here are some basic rules and parameters to begin with.  Basic laws of return to follow (assuming you'd like the world to be a nice place to live in for everyone).

1) First do no harm.  From the oath (cheers Dave).  Sounds right don't it but it wasn't until last night that I really got it.  I'd been to a petrol station outside Epsom for gas and groceries, and petitioned Ganesh (the dude behind the counter) to assist me in clearing a block.  (I asked him what the answer was, and he said £76.81).  It was time for Dave and I to have the big convo about the house.  Nervous much?  I drove home through happening and a part of me was feeling scared of the dark, when it really sang for me.  First, do no harm.  Basically, don't worry.  Don't conjure dark clouds in your head. 

2) Do what you love.  Don't worry about what everyone else is doing.  Pour your love into the things you care about.  If everyone does this all will be actually groovy and everyone/thing will be cared for.  Family, friends (bipedal or otherwise), dreams.  If you can't love it, then leave it alone, it's not for you.

3) Laugh often and well.  Can't find nuffin to laugh at?  Try this:

http://www.youtube.com/user/greensville#p/a/u/2/N3ZtNCNVl3c

or this:

http://www.youtube.com/user/greensville#p/u/16/UZZC_hk830w

You'll know you've really got the knack of this life when it becomes funny. 

4) If you must judge, forgive first.  No ones saying you don't get to think it through in your own time, in your own way.  Just try and let go of the idea that the situation (whatever, whomever it is) is intrinsically fucked first.

5) Give freely where you love and there will always be ample.  For you and for everything else.

6) When you cheat you steal from yourself, and when you do that you steal from everyone.  Don't cheat. 

7) Tidy up after yourself.  Leave things a little better in your wake if you can.  Pick up rubbish.  Make the bed.  Do the dishes.  Figure out your shit.  That way the folks who come after can get on with what they love without muddying themselves up trying to figure out your shit.

8) Be a bare witness to the events that unfold for you in front of you.  Bare witness to your pain and other's.  Really listen.  If you find yourself wanting to say "yeah, but", stay quiet and listen.

9) There is no pain you are supposed to hold on to.  Only information, given freely and with love.

10) All things radiate energy (its called thermodynamics baby).  All radiation contains a message and some messages take longer to receive than others.  Go to places you love and listen with open heart, ears and eyes.

11) Well this one goes up to 11...
Trust.  Deep trust.  This is a perfect world.  You will get everything you need and more (as your needs change) in time.  When you feel lost just trust that in time the world will return.  All you need to be is yourself, and this plane of reality will rise to astonishing and beautiful heights.  Breath into it.  Test where you are by seeing how you feel.  Breath and move further in.  How do you feel?  Breath and move.

12) OK, 12.
Tell your child they can do anything.  Then ask them what they want to do.  Listen to their response.  Play and enjoy.

13) So whose counting?
Genius.  What is it and how can you be one?  Easy!  Just listen to what you love, love it, and respond.  Don't hold anything back.  The love will flow through you and be transformed and everyone will marvel at what you have wrought.  Me especially, cos I am deeply interested in stuff.  Make me some wicked good stuff please guys.  Phil is also deeply interested in stuff, especially nature.  Anyone out there up for properly learning to talk to animals?  I'm nailed on sure that they are funny as fuck.

14) What does Guy want, who is in all things?

Send up a prayer in my name

How?

See number 2.

And the beautiful thing is that once people know the right thing to do, they can't help but act from that truth deep inside themselves.  (Ha ha, it's too late for you.  You've read all this now, it's in you.  Love you guys. x)

And so it builds exponentially as we all remind each other "Tiddler" style (http://www.amazon.co.uk/Tiddler-Julia-Donaldson/dp/0439943779) of the way back to the light.

See, in all our searching, the only thing we've found that makes the emptiness bearable, is each other. - Carl Sagan (Contact).

My love and I had a wonderful 3rd date yesterday in Croydon.

The best bits were spontaneously picking up rubbish with him.  Making the bedroom at Bertie's all nice again for Claire, and washing more dishes than we'd use the night before before we left.

Because each of these was an act of love, freely given, which then resonates out.

I left Bertie a lovely ginger root on his veggie rack (shhh, he doesn't know yet).

Bertie turned me on to ginger and lemon tea (add honey to your own taste - from local bees if you have allergies).

It's awesome.  Chop a couple of slivers off the ginger root (they're dead fucking cheap) and bung 'em in your favourite mug with a slice of lemon.  Pour on hot water, and imbibe the loveliness.  Best of all, if it goes cold it's still nice.  And if you fancy another after 20 minutes just pour more hot water over what's left in the cup and go again, with no side effects, other than the satisfaction of a nice cuppa.

Look forward to playing with you again later.  My 5 year old is now working on flight.  He had an awesome idea for how we can break orbit without using all that fuel.  Mas tarde wapa niños.

x
TP

21/09/2010

PS, if you're gonna bung a slice of lemon in hot water, make sure it's one of the unwaxed ones.  Unless of course you like a little wax in your tea...

PPS

For the really good stuff crush and bung in a couple of "Poor Man’s Capers".  These are the seeds from the Nasturtium.  I just randomly grew some this year.  Phil pointed out they were edible and had a nice peppery heat to them.  Just the extra kick I was looking for ¦ )

I believe in Guy

10:06 12/09/2010  Shed stoop (started as notes on paper)

Ok, firstly it's important to note that I have decided to re-christen God as Guy.  Several reasons, chief of which I want to make it clear that it's not the Christian God or any other word driven deity I'm currently dancing with. 

Guy is the essence of all.  We are manifest in a realm of boundaries and parameters, made from the stuff of Guy, but we were also given free will.  Which basically means we get to do as we please.  There are rules of return which govern this Universe of energy.  More on that later once I've dropped Sarah's bf off at home and finished the weekly shop.  (Keeping your promises is a very important rule, because you get what you ask for, and trying to pull in another direction means working through messages which will feel painful - that's why, unless you're an enlightened motherfucka, divorce is such a bitch).

You may possibly have to wait for more on these rules until after little man's bedtime, but bare with me it's coming...

Why Guy?  After Guy Garvey, lead singer of Elbow. Like much else which I am currently finding completely fucking awesome in my life, I didn't know him from Adam 2 weeks ago.  Why this accolade?  For The Seldom Seen Kid in general (not the first song on the album, which Phil says is the exception that proves the rule, only he doesn't quite say it like that), and for Mirrorball and The Loneliness of the Tower Crane Driver specifically.

Particularly The Loneliness of the Tower Crane Driver.  Deep truths run through all creative mediums where the creator creates purely for love of what they are doing (as opposed to money, sex, fecklessness, boredom, revenge etc - powerful emotion breeds powerful messages, and the finest, most personally satisfying, most powerful, creative, nurturing and ultimately destructive force there is, is love).

To me The Loneliness of the Tower Crane Driver sounds like my soul's mission.  A description of the journey I'm on which I would say started with the Protestant Reformation when many strands of energy (generations of people) gradually lost their esoteric sense of Guy (the feel of him) and bent their heads to studying the esoteric body of him (the world). 

That must have tickled, but I think he's bored of being tickled now and wants to be believed in again.  Otherwise where am I getting all this shit from, and why am I sharing it now?

Here are the lyrics.  The music is also awesome.  Picture the great thudding footsteps of Shiva when you listen.

Gotta get out of TV
Just pick a point and go
The ticker-tape tangles my feet
As I search for a face that I know

Come on, tower crane driver
There's not so far to go

I must have been working the ropes
When your hand slipped from mine
Now I live off the mirrors and smoke
It's a joke, a fix, a lie

Come on, tower crane driver
Oh so far to fall

Send up a prayer in my name

Just the same
They say I'm on top of my game

Dwindle gentle rose

Send up a prayer in my name

Listen to that album (somewhere you feel happy and safe, with headphones the first couple of times).  Guy's love is self-evident all through it (except the first track which I have, until now anyway, found myself unable to listen to). 

Hence I can now state categorically that I believe in Guy.

And the good people of Purley know that if I'm listening to my soul song on the way to my car I do struggle to keep the pure fucking love from exploding through my voice - which has an odd bell/ chime quality now which it never had before.

SEND UP A PRAYER IN MY NAME!!!

How?

Love babies.  Love.

Incidentally apparently Guy (that's Garvey, not the almighty) has a show on BBC Radio 6 from 10pm to 12 on a Sunday night.  Phil told me a couple of days ago.  I am so listening to that tonight.  Hopefully he's doing it (apparently sometimes he gets stand-ins).

Hang on, just go check shall I...  After all, what else is the interweb for?

Bum holes, he's not on this week.  Next week then.

x
TP

Double crack-a-jack

I've fucking done it.

No one finds their true love, God, and mysteriously the means by which to stay in the house of the dreams in a mere fortnight eh?  They do now.

And I'm gonna share it babies.  Woosh! here we go.

And the fucking fab thing is that 2 weeks ago it wasn't true.  I always had a vision of what I wanted but I've let it evolve with me recently.  I've allowed myself to be wrong.  Gloriously wrong for all to see.  I've allowed the possibility that I might not get my way.  Really knuckled down and looked it in the eye.

And the result is that I am right.

And I get it all.

The whole beautiful vision in the Big Number 2 is going to come true.

Play time babies.

Now who has a funny story of sommat that's actually happened which happened to you or you heard about directly via the old 6 degrees?

I'll start shall I?

So, my son Benjy's bezzie mate Flynn's dad's mate's missus (as all the best stories begin) was asked to look after a dog by a couple of mates.  The dog was well old. 

Oh man, she thought, I just know this dogs gonna carck it while I've got it.

Sho enough.  The dog dies.

Oh man. 

So she had to get this dead dog to the vets so they'd dispose of the body, but she didn't have a car or much money and it turns out they'll charge you for coming to pick up dead animals if they have to send an ambulance to do it.

So she came up with the genius idea of putting the dog in a big silver DJ case and taking it on the train.

She's at the train station.  No lift.  She has to drag the case up the stairs.

So she's huffing and puffing her way up the stairs with this case when a guy comes up to her.

Are you alright there love?

Um.

What's in the case.

Er.  Well. It's... my husbands DJ equipment.

Do you want a hand?

Really?  Oh thank you!

So he takes the case.  And he runs off with it.

x
TP

Cracked it! For the time being.

6:02 11th September 2010.

Black chair. Blue room.  Listening to the Bison festival's version of Jolene.  (Leave him love).

The truth is you will lead the life you let yourself lead.  So it's well worth working your shit out as and when it arises.  If you let yourself get weighed down with worry that you don't deserve your life then you leave it unsupported.  Go talk to someone who loves you and work that stuff out.

People get lost in the pretty patterns of synchronicity and in the heady rush of power play.

These are the eddies which swirl around the main potential.

God gave the world to us.

We transform it's energy with our thoughts and our actons, for good or for ill.  We really do.  IT'S OURS.  Let's party like mum n' dad have gone away.  Make sure we get the place ship shape for when the kids get up tho yeah?

I'm going to have so much fun with this life!

And I'll offer what I can to anyone who asks.

And, you know, do stuff for the kids.  Cos the kids are awesome.  If you want to be proper cheered up, go tell a child that they can do anything they like with their life (true) and then ask them what they want to do.

My 5 year old son says he's bringing back the dinosaurs, and he's gonna start with robots.

Can't wait!

x
TP